Wednesday, March 20, 2019

The Very Heart of Who You Are~

So many of you are new here.
So . . .
just in case you are wondering  . . .
here's a little about me
and this place called "Heartprints of God".

I grew up in a loving, Christian family.
I went to church every week,
memorized scripture,
and knew all about
what it meant
to be a Christian.

Sadly, I didn't grow up knowing Christ.

And believe me,
there is a difference.
A huge difference.

From the sidelines of life,
I stood watching the rest of the world
march to the beat
of its own drum
while aimlessly stumbling
around in the dark
to hear the beat
of my own heart.

Everyone else seemed
to have it all together.
Everyone else seemed
so confident in who they were,
in what that were doing,
in the living out of their life.

Not me.

It wasn't easy lugging around
heavy suitcases filled with
insecurity, self-doubt, fear
and a whole lot of other "unmentionables"
day in and day out.

I knew I was a
child of God,
but what did that mean?

How did that
help me
find my place?

Why did I always feel 
so out of place?

Fear held me prisoner.
I was
afraid of people,
afraid of failure,
afraid of life.

Needless to say,
this fear kept me
from being and doing
all that God had created
me to be.

But then .  . .
God began changing everything.

I started experiencing
a hungering and a thirsting
for something more.

I began to feel as though
the fear in my life
was suffocating me, -
sucking the very life out of me.

Lord, I want to be free.
I want to find my place.
I want to live.
I want to experience You.
I want to KNOW YOU.

Awww . . . at last,
my heart finally realized
what was missing.

Knowing God.

And so my search began.

My husband
(who at this time wasn't yet my Mr.
but who definitely KNEW God)
bought me a brand new Bible
and on the inside front cover,
placed a heart sticker
with the following verse:

And you shall seek me,
and find me,
when you shall search for me
with all your heart.
~Jeremiah 29:13

Then each day,
I set aside time
to read God's word.

I had read the Bible before,
but this was different.
I wasn't reading the Bible
to fill some religious requirement
or to memorize a verse
so I could place a sticker on a chart.

I was reading
to find God.

Before opening the pages
of God's word,
I would stop,
drop to my knees,
and open my heart to God.

I prayed for His Spirit
to open my eyes
to see Him.

I prayed for His Spirit
to open my ears
to hear Him.

I prayed for my heart
to know His heart.

And, I was not disappointed.

The Word of God
came alive to me.

Instead of a book
I didn't understand,
it became God's love letter
to me.

Each day I couldn't wait
to spend time
feasting on God's word.

The more I read,
the more I prayed,
the more I sought,
the hungrier I became.

The hungrier I became,
the more I read
and the deeper my
fellowship with the Lord.

Then, one day,
I came across the following passage:

For this cause I bow my knees
unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
of whom the whole family 
in heaven and earth is named,
that he would grant you,
according to the riches of his glory,
to be strengthened with might 
by His Spirit in the inner man;
that Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith;
that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,
may be able to comprehend with all saints
what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height;
and to know the love of Christ,
which passeth knowledge,
that ye might be filled 
with all the fullness of God.
~Ephesians 3:14-19

There it was.

May you be able to comprehend
with all saints
what is the
breadth, and length, and depth, and height;
and to know the love of Christ,
with passeth knowledge,
that ye might be filled
with all the fullness of God.

It was what I was longing for -
to know the love of Christ,
with passeth knowledge.

I wanted Christ in my heart,
not just in my head.
I wanted to be filled with
ALL THE FULLNESS OF GOD.

Kneeling down,
I invited Christ into my heart.

From that moment on,
His love
and the beauty
of who He is
has captured my heart.

I am no longer
held captive by fear
because God's perfect love for me
has cast out my fear. (1 John 4:18)

Now,
FINALLY,
I have found my place
in this world  . . .
only the beautiful thing is . . .
my place isn't in this world,
it is IN CHRIST.

No wonder I always
felt so out of place!

I am learning
who I am IN and THROUGH CHRIST
and this has made
all the difference
in who I am.

I am a sinner saved by grace.
Nothing I could ever do
would be worthy of Christ's love for me.
He loves me
simply (and amazingly!)
because He loves me.

The closer I get to Him,
the more I find out
who I am
and why I was created.

I more I come to know Him,
the more I come to know
my purpose on this earth.

The deeper I fall
in love with Him,
the more complete I am.

A heart transformed by the love of God.
A life changed by His presence.
A sinner saved by grace.
This is who I am.

God has completely changed my life.

Since I have come to know Him,
He has opened wide
doors of opportunity
for me to share His love with others.

Which,
brings us here,
to this place,
to this ministry,
to Heartprints of God.

I invite you to come in,
sit down for a bit,
and rest in His love.

May you come to
truly KNOW the Lover of your soul,
the one for whom you were created
to love and to serve.

May you find HIM here,
and in so doing,
find the very heart
of who you are.



~Stacy

1 comment:

  1. Oh my!!! Yes! Thank you for giving me the link to this from Facebook! I am so entirely that first person. I'm afraid to talk to people because they always look like they're not interested or I'm boring or I'm dumb. I try to fill the whole whole with health and exercise. I know I should be filling it with God's word, but the first one is much easier, plus I'm too scared to give up or to let go a little. I wish we could just sit down for coffee!

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