Thursday, May 18, 2017

When You Are Totally Immersed Deep Within~

Sometimes we only see the teeniest, tiniest glimpse of what God is doing.
Other times, in retrospect, we see the enormity of what God has already done
and is continuing to do
and it is more than we could ever have hoped, dreamed, or imagined.

"You should start a blog."

Words from my sister in 2009.
Not knowing what a blog even was,
and not being a writer,
her words seemed more like a funny joke than a sensible suggestion.

"Really, you should."

So, I did.

Now, here I sit, almost midnight, almost 8 years later.

And while I know all that Heartprints of God has always been and will always be is
God-orchestrated, God-inspired, God-fueled, God-given -
the past 15 months here,
in this space,
have been for me, personally,
an absolute life saver.

So often, when God calls us "into service"
we think we are the ones ministering to others
when God, Himself, is using our willingness and our obedience
to minister to us.

For me,
during this "wilderness season" of grief, transition,
and an "alone" unlike I have ever felt before,
God has used this precious place
to meet some of my deepest needs.

He has used comments, likes, shares, messages, emails
and prayers from you, my faithful readers,
to fill my heart with a renewed sense of hope and purpose.

"Oh Lord, where would I be without Heartprints of God?
What would I have to fill my days and
what would I have to satisfy this insatiable need
to tell others about Your goodness?
For 25 years, I have been in ministry.
I've been in classrooms and churches where
I've been able to use my God-given gifts to minister to others.
But now, Lord.
Here in this wilderness place.
What would I do without Heartprints of God?"

These are the words that poured from my heart tonight
as I washed my face while getting ready for bed.

And not surprising to those of you who know me or
those who have read here for any amount of time,
tears followed.

Tears of thanksgiving.
Tears of praise.
Tears of overwhelming realization that
those 5 words - "you should start a blog" -
were for such a time as this.

And then, this -
the realization that if we are willing
when we hear God say,
"Really, you should"
and we do,
there is nothing He can't do through us.

I'm not a writer -
but here in this place,
God writes through me.

And these past 15 months,
God has used this place not only to
(I pray) encourage you,
but to encourage me

He has used this place not only to
(I pray) comfort you,
but to comfort me.

He has used this place not only to
(I pray) draw you closer to Him,
but to draw me closer to Him.

He has used this place not only to
(I pray) fan the flames of your faith,
but to fan the flames of my faith.

He has used this place not only to
(I pray) help you find your purpose
and your place in and through Him,
but to help me find my purpose
and my place in and through Him.

He has used this place not only to
(I pray) provide companionship,
fellowship and a sense of
you-are-not-in-this-alone to you,
but to provide companionship,
fellowship and a sense of
you-are-not-in-this-alone to me.

"Oh Lord, where would I be without Heartprints of God?"

But thank God, I am not without.
I am totally immersed deep within.

And, I thank Him with every fiber of my being,
from the deepest place of my heart.
For where would Heartprints of God be
if it weren't for my God who meets me here?

And I thank you.
For where would Heartprints of God be
if it weren't for you who join me here?

How can one lady be so extremely blessed?

I don't know.

But, I am.
I most certainly am.

"You should start a blog. Really, you should."

Oh, I am so glad God did.











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