Saturday, July 9, 2016

The Strength from Within~

For as long as I can remember,
I've known that I am a spiritual being living in a physical body.
That I was created with Heaven in mind,
but I am a citizen of earth
until that glorious day when I can change my physical address here
for my spiritual address there.

And for some reason,
(I'm not really quite sure why),
I've never truly grasped how my physical being and my spiritual being
are being lived out in my every day,
day to day living of my life.

Until recently, that is.

Until losing my husband.

My physical being misses my husband.

It physically misses his physical presence -
his touch, his laugh, his voice, his companionship.

It physically hurts from losing him -
soreness in every muscle,
fatigue in every waking moment,
a heartache that radiates through every inch of me.

It is my physical being that longs for him to be here with me still.
It is my physical being that mourns his passing, that feels the emptiness, that fights to go on.

But then,
there is my spiritual being.

When we become born again by His Spirit,
God graciously and amazingly,
places His Spirit inside of us,
in our inner man.
May He grant you out of the riches of His glory, to be strengthened and spiritually energized with power through His Spirit in your inner self, [indwelling your innermost being and personality], so that Christ may dwell in your heart through your faith.  And may you, having been [deeply] rooted and [securely] grounded in love, be fully capable of comprehending with all the saints (God's people) the width and length and height and depth of His love [fully experiencing that amazing, endless love]; and [that you may come] to know [practically, through personal experience] the love of Christ which far surpasses [mere] knowledge [without experience], that you may be filled up [throughout your being] to all the fullness of God [so that you may have the richest experience of God's presence in your lives, completely filled and flooded with God Himself].
Now to him who is able to [carry out His purpose and] do superabundantly more than all that we dare ask of think [infinitely beyond our greatest prayers, hopes, or dreams], according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations forever and ever. Amen. ~Ephesians 3:16-21 (AMP) 
It is my inner man,
filled with His Spirit
that is the core of
who I am,
and what I do.

And, I am discovering it is this part of me,
my inner man,
keeps stirring up my faith,
keeps mustering up my courage,
keeps praising my God,
keeps seeing His faithfulness,
keeps trusting His plan,
keeps stepping out,
keeps believing,
and keeps moving on.

It is my inner man that is upholding and sustaining my physical being.

It is my inner man,
empowered by His precious Holy Spirit,
that makes the difference in whether I lie down and give up,
or keep on keeping on.

And, I am reminded of the story of Jacob.
How Jacob loved Rachel with a love that was willing to work 14 years to win her hand in marriage.
How together, they had Joseph, but sadly, years later,
Rachel died giving birth to their second son, Benjamin.
So Rachel died, and she was buried on the way to Ephrath, (that is, Bethlehem), and Jacob set up a pillar at her grave; it is the pillar of Rachel's tomb, which is there to this day. ~Genesis 35:20
Jacob was heartbroken to be sure.
And I can't help thinking his physical being felt this loss
the same way I am feeling the loss of my Handsome Honey,
the same way you may be feeling a loss in your own life.

He placed in the ground the love of his life.
Then, he placed a memorial at the sight,
so she wouldn't be forgotten,
so her memory would live on.

And, I'm sure he wept tears.
And, I'm sure Jacob wondered what he would do now,
and how he would do what he needed to do now.

But then,
there is the spiritual being,
there is the part of us that has been touched and transformed by God's touch.

Sometimes when this happens we are given a new name
(as was the case with Jacob when God changed his name to Israel),
but all times when this happens
we are given a new identity in God,
an inner strength birthed in our inner man,
an inward movement of His Spirit
that leads us in an outward and forward direction.

Just look at Jacob.

Just look at the very next verse.

Jacob buried the love of His life,

but then . . .
Israel journeyed on, and pitched his tent beyond the tower of Eder. ~Genesis 35:21

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