Tuesday, March 1, 2016

I Hear Him Still~

We sit across from each other,
my sister and I,
a plate of biscuits and gravy in front of us both.

As we say "amen",
we reach for our fork and "dive in".

Our conversation is light,
small talk at its best.
Just my sister and I,
finding our way through a season of grief.

As the conversation flows,
my sister asks me a question.
And while I can't remember what she asked,
I remember my answer,
and the unexpected laughter that followed.

"I don't know.  I'm not sure.  I think she may have, no wait, she might actually have... You know.  I really don't know."

Then, laughter.

With a tilt of her head,
and an eyebrow now raised,
my sister holds her coffee cup in midstream between the table and her mouth and asks,
"What's so funny?"

And, I tell her.

It is the voice of my husband from so many times past,
running through my mind,
as plain as if my man was seated beside me.

"T-H-A-T'S  R-I-G-H-T, Stacy. You don't know. Just say you don't know."
(which, if he would have been here to say it, would have been followed by a smirk distinctly his own and the twinkle of his eye.)

It's what he said each and every time I rambled on and on trying to come up with an answer I didn't truly know.

His reply always made me laugh.

And here,
in this season of deepest sorrow,
even in his absence,
the memory of his words were able to stir up a laugh that even my broken heart couldn't escape.

When I needed a reminder of my love,
words he had spoken in the past were heard in my heart.

And I thought about the thin, crisp pages of my Bible
and all the precious words of my God written there.
How when I least expect it,
but need it the most,
words He has spoken through His written Word
run through my mind,
as plain as if my God was seated beside me.

In relationships: Love another as I have loved you.

In trials: Be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.

In decision-making: Acknowledge me and I will direct your paths.

In my mistakes: Confess your sins to me and I will forgive you.

In my fears: I didn't give you a spirit of fear. I gave you love, power and a sound mind.

In my day-to-day life: I am with you always.

One after another,
just when I need them,
God is faithful to bring to my remembrance
promises He has spoken to my heart in seasons past.

When I need a reminder of my God,
words He has written upon the pages of my heart
stir up my faith,
rekindle my strength,
gird my heart,
and bring a smile.

I am so thankful I can still hear the voice of my beloved husband in the memories of my mind.
His humor and love warm my heart still.

Yet, I am most thankful for my Heavenly Father,
the Giver of all good gifts,
the One who gave me the precious gift of my Handsome Honey,
the One who knows me better than I know myself.

It is HIS voice that leads me into the paths of righteousness.

It is HIS voice that leads me to my eternal home.

It is HIS voice I want guiding me each and every day.

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