Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Standing Guard~

 I've heard it said that your greatest strength is also your greatest weakness. And, I believe this to be true. Think about it. Someone who is known for their dynamic leadership ability has probably also been labeled "bossy" once or twice during his or her lifetime. 

My greatest strength / weakness?

I have a sensitive spirit.

Don't get me wrong. Truly, this has been one of the greatest blessings of my life. My sensitive spirit has opened the ears of my heart to hear God's still small voice. I am keenly aware of His promptings and I feel the rhythm of His movement in my life. I hear His truth, His affirmation, His singing over me and I take it all in, allowing it to re-create me into who God made me to be. I am His daughter and I hold my heart up high.

But,


I am also extremely sensitive to the voices of the world. Words spoken by others wound my spirit and leave me second-guessing who I am.  Glances and overtures cause me to question my identity. Words spoken in anger penetrate the very depth of my soul and stay there. Sorrow and grief (whether in my life or in the life of those around me) weigh me down. 


It's hard having a tender heart in a tough world.

And yet,

I realize my sensitive spirit is a gift. It is how my Heavenly Father knit me together in my mother's womb.  It is who I am, and, it is good.

But, it also leaves me vulnerable to heartache, depression, doubt and defeat.

This morning, as I called out to the Lord, He was faithful to hear my cry and rescue me with words of wisdom from His word.

My child, pay attention to what I say.

Listen carefully to my words.
        Don’t lose sight of them.
Let them penetrate deep into your heart,
      for they bring life to those who find them,

and healing to their whole body.
Guard

your

heart
above all
else,


           for it determines the course of your life. Proverbs 4:20-23, NLT

It was at if God's words were leaping off the page.  Words I had read time and time again, now loomed bigger than life for the very first time.  This time, it wasn't my eyes that read these words of wisdom and instruction from my Abba Daddy, it was my heart.

Every day words from all directions bombard my heart.  If I am to survive their assault, the answer is not found in allowing these hurts to harden my heart, desensitizing me, leaving me numb and unable to feel.

No. 

The answer is to this dilemma is found in allowing the Holy Spirit to teach me what is of HIM and what is not; to be an active participant in deciding what goes into my heart, and what does not.

While it's true I cannot control which words come at me, I can choose which words I let "enter" my heart.

It is up to me to stand guard against anything contrary to the Word of God.

It is doesn't line up with HIS truth, it doesn't need to go any further than my ears.

It. is. as. simple. as. that.

Heavenly Father,
It is YOU who created me; YOU who made me so very sensitive.  Too often, I have questioned why.  Forgive me, Father.  What I have mistaken as a "thorn", a weakness, is indeed one of my greatest blessings.  To be sensitive, to hear your still small voice, to be moved with compassion, to be tender-hearted....this IS a gift.  May I remember YOUR counsel.  May I be diligent to guard my heart.  May my "weakness" be indeed, my greatest strength as I use it to help my fellow man and bring glory and honor to YOU.
In Jesus' name, Amen~




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5 comments:

  1. Very enlightening post, Stacey. God uses your words so many times to speak to my hear. Regretfully, my heart sometimes puts up an invisible force field to protect itself and ends up becoming impervious to what I DO need to feel.
    Thanks for the wise insight.
    Blessings!
    Pam

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  2. Hi Stacy - I think my strength/weakness is being direct and I get both negative and positive responses to that. the thing is to channel it into how God wants me to use it. Great post
    God bless
    Tracy
    PS: we need lots of sensitive spirits in this hard world - glad you are one

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  3. This evening in our Bible study we spoke of those who are very sensitive. I agree, sometimes our greatest strengths can be weakness. As Tracy said, we need more sensitive spirits in the world. I like what you said here, "It is up to me to stand guard against anything contrary to the Word of God. It is doesn't line up with HIS truth, it doesn't need to go any further than my ears. It. is. as. simple. as. that."

    Blessings,
    Joan

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  4. Thanks for blessings your readers with your openness and transparency. I think you are wise to guard your heart. It does matter what we feed our minds and hearts. God will guide our process in this, too. What might be ok for you is not ok for me. For example I have given up watching TV in order to be a better vessel for God. God is guiding you so beautifully. Keep listening to him! Abundant blessings!

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  5. oh stacy. me too. i have a sensitive spirit too. thank you for your vulnerability and your wisdom. xo

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Thank you for leaving a "heartprint" of your own.