Monday, September 12, 2011

Is That Me? Really??????

Have you ever seen yourself

Mirror
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in the behavior of someone else?

Lately, the Lord has been giving me a dose of my own medicine. Sans a sugar coating to sweeten each revelation, these new insights have been pretty hard to swallow.

It's easy for me to fool myself into thinking I am something (or someone) I'm not. Especially, when I look at other people and then compare my behavior in light of theirs.

Sure, I'm hopping mad, but at least my temper isn't as bad as his!

Wow, I can't believe how critical she is. I would never judge someone else like that!

I hear you laughing. You know exactly what I'm talking about because you, too, have said or thought the exact same thing! We humans are funny creatures, aren't we?

And yet, there's nothing like catching our reflection in the actions of someone else to steal the chuckle right out of us!

Why is it that we have such a hard time seeing the real us? Good or bad. Those with a chip on their shoulder often see in themselves qualities, gifts and talents the rest of us can't quite see, while those with a poor self-image have trouble spotting that which is so obvious to everyone else.

I think it is because we tend to look at our self and others through human eyes. But God, He sees our heart. And, it is the ugliness in my heart that has been popping up in the least likely places.

I really shouldn't be surprised, though.

A few weeks ago, I decided to pray the same prayer David prayed.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
~Psalms 139:23-24, NLT
The great I am, the Lover of my Soul, my faithful Shepherd is He. And, mercifully, tenderly and often painfully, He is revealing to me ... ME.

The real me.



Not my reputation, but my character.


Not who I think I am, but who I really am.



And...

it hasn't been pretty.



But, it's exactly what I needed.  Unless we come face to face with real us, we will never come face to face with our need for a Saviour.

The closer I get to God, the more I realize just how wretched I am.


The more I learn of His spotless character, the more I discover the sinfulness and filthiness of my own.


The deeper I fall in love with my Savior, the more I humbly bow before my God and thank Him for


the gift of Jesus,


the gift of salvation,


the gift of redemption,


the gift of re-creation.




This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! ~ 2 Corinthians 5:17, NLT

Slowly, but surely, one revelation at a time, God is remaking me into His image. 

At times it is painful, embarrassing and down right humiliating, not to mention, depressing, but I am learning to let God search me and try me, and then, to miraculously change me.

Nope!

Upon Godly inspection, I am definitely not who I thought I was.


But, hallelujah,


thanks to Godly sanctification,


I'm not who I used to be either!


Today, I am linking up with Jen at:

9 comments:

  1. "Unless we come face to face with real us, we will never come face to face with our need for a Saviour." Amen! Love that butterfly picture too.

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  2. Praising Our Lord with you. The layers are hard to peel off, but once they are off, oh glorious day indeed!

    m.b.

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  3. This is a wonderful (ly conficting) prayer to pray. I also decided a while back to pray it and God showed me so many things wrong with me that I asked him to stop!!! but, when we come face to face with our need, he does gently lift us up.

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  4. Hi Stacy - this is so true. This weekend I got a big visual of some heart ugliness of mine and I did not like it. In the past I would have justified it. But now, I'm choosing to let God replace it with His love. Its like you say, I'm not perfect, but at least I'm not who I was yesterday.
    God bless
    Tracy

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  5. My life verse is the one you quoted from 2 Corinthians 5:17 "This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun." I cling to it as a promise that each day is new and another chance for Jesus to shape me into what he wants me to be. Great post-so encouraging, Stacy!
    Blessings!
    Pam at www.2encourage.blogspot.com

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  6. i've had similar thoughts of late. and it's never pretty. but the re-making. . . it is a wonderful process, safe, held by Him. and it's right where we need to be in order to avoid a life of arrogance and judgment of others, which is so easy to find myself falling into.
    beautifully written.

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  7. Strong and hard work. Thanks.

    Fondly,
    Glenda

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  8. This is beautifully and so honest. I have figured out recently that part of the reason why I have been trapped in an anger-cycle with a particular person is because I get angry with her behavior and this is the same behavior that I cannot stand in myself. So really, I'm not mad at her, I'm mad at myself...

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  9. I love that prayer. It's my "prayer of desperation" when I feel lost or unconfident. So I pray it a lot... It gives me faith and reassurance that God will take care of me no matter what. But you sure gave me a new perspective to it. Thank you.

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Thank you for leaving a "heartprint" of your own.